What are you afraid of? Losing your individuality? Your comfort-zone? Do you simply feel that your struggles up to this point will be invalidated?
Or are you worried about something bigger... Are you worried that you upset someone? Maybe someone like 'god', maybe just yourself? Have you done something wrong? Do you think you're unforgivable?
Do you think this is all a lie, somehow? Can you deny what you've seen? Is this something you can risk being "wrong" about? Is it worth hiding?
Do you ever wonder how much longer you can keep this secret? Do you wonder if it will get "better"? Are you running out the clock?
Are you afraid of the responsibility? Are you you worried you can't handle it? That you might mess it up? That you'll get blamed for terrible things?
Do you think it ends here? Do you think we are not approaching a finish-line, but a milestone? That life is a journey, not a destination?
Do you want to know more? Do you like where you are now? Do you feel tormented by questions that seem to have no value? Do you want to see in the dark?