IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT

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i was only temporary, is dead. this song is the new meta.

i was only temporary was written during a very dark time, and i've felt terrible about the comments over the last year of some people reporting it makes them feel sad.

this song is all about standing up to bullies, standing up to your own self doubt, and finally doing that thing you've always wanted to do.
i hope you can throw this on before work, the gym, or anything else that feels hard to get the mental strength to overcome. i don't want to make you guys feel sad, i wanted to connect with you all in sharing my true emotions, for anyone who feels the same way.
but i would be lying if i sad i am still sad. im simply not.
all of you here who have built this incredible community of kind people have changed everything. I will always have my brain disease, MS, but its becoming impossible to let it drag me down from all the kindness you all show everyday.

I would like this to be a new chapter! I have been 8 months free from working with dreamscape, and after finally exposing oneheart (you can read all about that here if you want) (just remove the spaces)
https:// drive.google. com/drive/u/8/folders/1yzXFrVdVddgSlcdef-9pCLu7m-dVjQtE

I've never felt more light and free having finally gotten that information out, knowing i don't have to live with all of that anymore, being among the very few to know about it. It's all out there and that's where the name of this song comes from. I have been carefully collecting their words, and actions to finally come to this moment, where i could share it with the world, and for it to be plain to see just how they do things.


To me its absolutely disgusting, the way people like them use their status to manipulate smaller artists into writing music for them, and push out sad music to generate streams and money off of people who are feeling emotional. It goes against everything music should be.

I hope that this can be a new chapter for myself, and other artists who will hopefully be spared going thru what i had, now that the truth is out there, and everyone out there listening no longer has to feel like they we're being used, and their emotions we're being manipulated.

I am no stranger to sad music, its why i've always made sure to share that long google document, talking about my life, and experiences with d3aths of friends, my disease, family issues and so on. I always needed to be open and transparent with you all about the reason behind this "sad music" being made about my life. Thankfully is always been out there, i'm sure dreamscape guys will try to generate some "lore" now to cover up for themselves, but its too little, to late.

I hope in doing this, this side of music can heal, and some authenticity can begin to sprout.
I still think there is a place for emotional simple ambient music, but i think personally music from the heart will always be more helpful, than music from guys like nØheart (sorry i couldn't resist Lol)
who seek to take credit for music they didn't write and pretend to make emotional music to exploit the hearts of millions worldwide for an easy buck.

Anyways, i am so excited for this new chapter to begin and hopefully the best music yet will be made, there are tons of songs i can't wait to share, and ill do my best to record my own full music videos when i can, and my health will allow it.

for now, this video was an edit of little clips from the film "Pulse". it's a very dark film, and it was symbolic for me to try to only include some moments from the visually interesting and cool parts of the movie as a symbolic way to reinstate what this song is about. The song was made thru finalaizing the statement exposing oneheart, and in my mind, it was like soemthing good coming from something very bad. I feel that way about this visual, the edit is kind of like taking only the coolest moments out of an otherwise very dark film.

Anyways, i hope you guys will enjoy the music and thank you for always standing with me, you all give me so much courage and strength when my body literally has none at times.

A small update about my health, i think my health got so bad because i knew i would be finally exposing them, and i had to go thru so much horrible chat logs, and information it made me physically so sick re-living years of nastiness, so by the end of it my eye sight has been failing worse than ever, and i've had trouble walking with both legs.

Honestly though, now that it's finally out there, its like my body has done a complete 180. I've been feeling so much better so fast. My walking is getting better by the day, my eye sight is nearly perfect like 80% of the day as compared to like 10% before, my heat intolerance is disappearing, and my sleep issues are going away too. It's like by getting out this nasty stuff about those guys to the world, it's no longer inside me literally eating holes in my brain (lesions).

BIG LOVE to u all