
Today I hit forty, but there’s nothing here to show
I count the years of failures as the doubts begin to grow
I knocked on every doorway, watched each promise close its door
Halfway down this roadway, I found I couldn’t walk anymore
**Pre-Chorus**
Silent questions haunt me—would it matter if I fade?
If I vanish from this story, will my memory be betrayed?
**Chorus**
Does my laughter mean a thing when all I taste is numb?
If my footsteps disappear, will anyone come?
Would my absence bring relief, no trace or need to mourn?
Does this life I’m living hold more purpose than being torn?
**Verse 2**
I gathered all my losses, let my biggest dreams sink low
Every plan I ever built just found a way to let me go
With each “almost” slipping by, my courage slipped away
The stranger in the mirror has nothing left to say
**Chorus**
Does my laughter mean a thing when all I taste is numb?
If my footsteps disappear, will anyone come?
Would my absence bring relief, no trace or need to mourn?
Does this life I’m living hold more purpose than being torn?
**Bridge**
Forty years I’ve wandered, lost without a map or sign
Searching for a glimmer that could spark this heart of mine
But time keeps moving onward, teaching lessons harsh and cold
Maybe my existence is just stories left untold
**Chorus**
Will my laughter break this cycle locked within my mind?
Am I just a fading breath when no one looks behind?
Life’s a page unwritten—where do I begin this line?
Is it worth the struggle or am I running out of time?
**Outro**
Tonight I stand at forty, the view remains the same
Left with questions only—no one else to blame
Perhaps tomorrow’s sunrise brings a chance to start again
But for now I feel the darkness settle in.
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